I am happy for you :)

Had good fun today. An ophthalmologist friend of mine is in town, so Shekhar and I, went and met up with her. It was hilarious! I think Shekhar and myself were both at a pretty good state of humor today and the fact that our friend is such an awesome sport, just made it better :) 2 hours of continuous rotfl! (Google it if you don't know what it means :P)

Work was weird today. Extremely boring!!!! Extremely!! Sat and sifted through all the commands and the software is one hell of a complicated program with such a large number of commands that one tends to lose track of the whole scene. Good thing is at the end, I had a rough idea about how the structure should be.

I think I have mentioned before that I have had an increased interest in photography. I have a Nikon L11 digicam with which I manage to take decent pictures and with a little bit of post processing, things turn out interesting. But after a recent encounter with a Nikon D3000 Digital SLR, the thought of getting myself a DSLR has been seeded. I am thinking of saving me some money and getting an entry level DSLR. Something to experiment with and learn the ropes. I was pretty confused between Canon (EOS 500D & EOS 550D) and Nikon (D3000 & D5000). But after seeing the specs, approximate price and a few reviews, I think Nikon D5000 would be the best for me. Now I just need to somehow manage and save around 38K :P.

I have noticed something which I think is pretty common and happens with everyone. It is a common phenomenon to see people not very happy when someone else is happy for a change. What I mean to say is that lets say for example, out of 3 acquaintances, one gets a good job and shares it with the other two, 80% - 90% of the time, they will give a nod and a smile and then criticize among themselves as to why the job is so not what it is made out to be. Its not often that others share the joy when you share your good news with them. In fact there will be people who takes it upon themselves to convince you that it is really not so great and you have nothing much to be happy about. Then there are those who'll use this opportunity to just get a free "daaru-party".

It has happened to me too. The saddest part is that I have been the one to nod and smile and then feel jealous about my friend's fortune. The jealousy came for a fraction of second but the damage was done. I was happy for him, but the sense of guilt over powered it. I think most of us are always so dissatisfied with what we have that this thing happens. Or maybe this feeling comes, when we lack something and a friend's good news just reinforces the fact that we are unable to get it while he can, which takes precedence over the thought of feeling happy for his success.

There are a lot of factors for this, including the fact that some people are just by nature negative and they just can't see someone else happy. It's like they are epicenters of negativity. My mom tells me, "Too little of something makes us mean minded and too much of something makes us too self-engrossed. You need to find an optimum balance between the two where you have enough for yourself and yet can spare something for someone else's good." I think this applies to a lot of places but in this context, its true. If I have very less money then I'll never be happy when my friend gets a good salaried job and if I have too much of it, I'll probably not even feel his happiness cause it comes so easily to me. But if I have sufficient and am happy with myself, I think I'll appreciate his happiness and actually feel good for him. Feel that he deserves it.

Being jealous of others, I guess is human, but I wish we wouldn't feel jealous of our friends. Cause if you have a strong conscience, it becomes extremely difficult explaining the situation to yourself. And I guess answering one's own self is not as easy as it seems :)