Emotional Atyachaar

Disclaimer: Contains explicit content and may not be suitable for overtly decent people

I downloaded Masters of Chants by Gregorian today. I already had some of their songs but with my new net connection (I just love saying it) I got hold of their first album. Shall get hold of all of them. It is an awesome collection! Very very gothic and eerie :D. Will darken my room tomorrow and listen to it. Should be a good experience. It was exactly what I needed. Was a little mind-fucked most of the day. Helped me relax :)

There is one particular show on TV nowadays which totally freaks me out. It's Emotional Atyachaar on UTV Bindaas. It makes me very uncomfortable and I avoid watching it most of the times but then there are days when I get this inkling to see what new crap people can do. After watching the show there are just 2 thoughts that will come to your mind depending upon whether they are focusing on a girl or a guy. Most men are bastards! Most women are bitches! Absolutely made for each other :P. I am sure most of you have heard of it. In case you haven't, then let me just brief you a bit :)

The idea is very basic. You have a partner and you think that he/she might be doing some extra-curricular activities while sweetly telling you that he/she can't live without you? Well you do a tiny loyalty test on your partner and see how much in water your relationship is in. You would think initially, how can I doubt my partner? Isn't that like breaking the first commandment of Love? Well might as well do that and prevent yourself from breaking the 6th commandment, "Thou shall not murder!" :P. These guys create situations where a person of a sidey morality would falter. The rest as they say is history :)

I think there is no excuse for infidelity, unless you are in an open relationship (what the fuck is that anyways!?). Excuses such as we were so far away for so long, we didn't have time for each other and all that is absolute bull-shit! If you do not have the balls to tell the truth to your partner, no matter how difficult it is, then you don't deserve to be in a relationship. I have suffered my share of cheating, lying and two-timing. And that's the reason it pisses me off more when I see someone cheat on their partner, be it on TV or in real life. I have cut-off friendship with a very good friend because he did a similar thing. He may have his point of view and his excuses but knowing the girl and knowing that she was totally faithful to him, I don't give a rat's ass about it.

I may sound a bit snobbish and over-confident but I firmly believe that I will not fail a loyalty test no matter what. I have been proven wrong about a number of things in my life but I think this is one thing I am confident about, just like I am confident that I'll never start smoking/drinking. Seeing this program, I do feel scared to think about relationships and how I would react would it happen to me, again. I am sure a lot of you too may feel the same. But then based upon my history (whatever insignificant amount it is), I think infidelity is like a boomerang. You get exactly what you give :P And its not long before they get exactly what they deserve. And sometimes, if they have a little decency left, they come and apologize. But mostly by then, it doesn't really matter :)

Well life's a bitch and relationships are no child's play either. But then again, C'est La Vie!