Topsy-Turvy

I have not been satisfied with my recent posts. They have been abstract, random and very blyaaah! The last few days have been very busy, fun at times and not so fun at others, tiring nevertheless. Its difficult to put things down when there are too many things running around in your head. Anyways, its time I pulled up my socks and wrote something decent. As is evident from my posts earlier, a lot of them have been in the realms of psychology and philosophy. I guess it reflects my current thought process. Too many questions to find answers of. I am told that if I keep thinking about such things then I'll stop enjoying life and miss out on living.

I don't really agree with it though. I am living my life, though not how an average person my age would. There are a lot of things that I don't do because mostly I find them useless and not worth pursuing. I just get a feeling that its not going to help me achieve what I have come here for (I have no idea what that is). Secondly. I do not repent not doing them. There I go, talking about gray areas. Damn!

I want to make a trip to Sikkim this August, don't know if it'll work out. But it's due. I go there every 2 - 3 years and I last went there in 2007. Really miss the place. It would be a good break and fresh start to my new beginning. I can't believe that I am actually get out of my comfort zone and try out something new. I don't like staying away from home, I am more of a domesticated, home-loving kinda guy. I am most stable and peaceful at home than any other place. But this time, everything I am doing has a reason, I am not letting life change my life, but changing it with decisions that are thought of and pondered.

Never realized an idea could turn my life topsy-turvy!