Breathe before you scream

I apparently have an anger issue. Those who have seen it says I do, those who haven't can't even imagine it. Well I think I do. I obviously feel that my reasons for getting angry are always justified but others beg to differ. I have always tried to control my anger and the fact that there are people who laugh at the idea of me getting angry proves that I have been pretty successful.

The problem is with family and friends who are close. Mostly family though. Its human to use your family as a punching bag but I have slowly started to understand that they deserve our best. But I think I give most of my worst to them. I have seen that we end up hurting people we don't want to cause we get angry with people who we care about and at some level assume that they will mysteriously understand how we feel about everything.

I have been actively concentrating to think before I react to situations which provoke me. Its difficult but I think it helps. There have been so many times when I have stopped myself from reacting to statements that have proven to be just random statements and nothing of consequence. Had I reacted to them, all it would have led to was unrest and trouble.

Fortunately I have some really wonderful and sensible friends who help me out in such situations. Help me put things in perspective. At times I keep forgetting that everyone is not me and everyone does not think like me. Each person has his thought process and is entitled to his point of view and the right to lead his own life. It is at times, when these people get a little too tangled with my life that problems germinate. Maybe I should just keep them out.