Fragile

It's been more than a week now since I last wrote. The problem is a lot have happened in the past one week which has left me pretty depressed. I just didn't feel like putting them down in a post but I guess that acceptance is the only way to move ahead. Last weekend started off very well. 2 of my kitties got a home. Trupti was kind enough to come all the way from Mulund to take 2 of them home. The remaining 2 were healthy and active and things looked perfect. Everything went fine until yesterday.

Day before yesterday I got a call from Apna Home, followed by Trupti. Out of the 4, Trupti had taken one of the white/orange and one black. There was one which was of a dark shade and had stripes all over. Looked very much like Hobbes. Dr. Sangita from Apna Home called up to say that Hobbes wasn't keeping well. He wasn't moving much, wasn't eating much and generally was growing weak. His body kept getting cold and in spite of her various attempts to keep him warm, it wasn't helping. She wasn't very positive about saving him.

I had just done talking to the doctor when Trupti called and she had bad news too. The black one wasn't doing well and the same symptoms were showing. I told her about Hobbes and told her to continue the way she was doing. All I could do was hope for the best.

The next morning, ie yesterday I got a call from Trupti. The black one died at 8:30 in the morning. I immediately called up the shelter and found out that Hobbes had died too at 4:30. I didn't know what to do. They were fine just a couple of days back. How can they cease to live in 2 days? I went over to the shelter in the afternoon. The last one is all alone and looks terrible. It's become extremely skinny in spite of the constant feeding and all the care. I don't know what will happen to it. Trupti on the other hand is trying her best to keep the other one alive.

I feel bad for the way things have turned out and feel responsible for their deaths. Maybe I shouldn't have hurried to get them adopted so soon and separated them. I should have waited for atleast a couple of months before giving them away. By then they would have stabilized. Ignorance is my only plea, my only alibi. Others may be convinced by it but how do I convince myself?